i know what i want out of life. I know what i want in three years. I know where i want to live, what i want to be, who i want to be around. but right now, everything is a blur. I dont know if i'll ever measure up. I can try though, right? at least then i could go to bed all alone in some city somewhere, maybe with a puppy, and think to myself , "at least i tried. this means it wasn't meant to be. and this means im just not good enough." and i could sleep with that.
I couldn't sleep knowing that i was too scared to try. or too hurt to care. or too lazy to work.
or that i sat and thought about it too much instead of just doing it.
Time, along with myself, is my biggest enemy.
sometimes, time goes too fast, and other times it doesn't go fast enough. its a tricky, sneaky thing.
Big amounts of time make my heart hurt. I can deal with change, i can deal with hard work, i can deal with pressure, i can deal with stress. But i can't deal with time. I feel like, if i could freeze everything right now, i could start running, and just run and run, and then maybe i could run right into the future. right into who im supposed to be, without the wait, or the work or the worry.
One instant in time and everything could change. time is a scary thing.
thats why nobody can sit and wait. your life, and everyone else's life, could change with one blink of your pretty eyes, and then where are you? you have to find new dreams and new plans.
So start working now. Every second, every day, So that you aren't nowhere when your time comes. If everything changes before you get to live your dreams, then at least you know that you had a wonderful, productive time working for it. and that you're that much further to accomplishing another dream. You have a place in this world. When you have a goal, go full out fearless for it. Keep working for it until you get it, or until the universe picks you up and faces you in a different direction.
I couldn't sleep knowing that i was too scared to try. or too hurt to care. or too lazy to work.
or that i sat and thought about it too much instead of just doing it.
Time, along with myself, is my biggest enemy.
sometimes, time goes too fast, and other times it doesn't go fast enough. its a tricky, sneaky thing.
Big amounts of time make my heart hurt. I can deal with change, i can deal with hard work, i can deal with pressure, i can deal with stress. But i can't deal with time. I feel like, if i could freeze everything right now, i could start running, and just run and run, and then maybe i could run right into the future. right into who im supposed to be, without the wait, or the work or the worry.
One instant in time and everything could change. time is a scary thing.
thats why nobody can sit and wait. your life, and everyone else's life, could change with one blink of your pretty eyes, and then where are you? you have to find new dreams and new plans.
So start working now. Every second, every day, So that you aren't nowhere when your time comes. If everything changes before you get to live your dreams, then at least you know that you had a wonderful, productive time working for it. and that you're that much further to accomplishing another dream. You have a place in this world. When you have a goal, go full out fearless for it. Keep working for it until you get it, or until the universe picks you up and faces you in a different direction.
take your pick. You have the whole world open for exploring and deciding. but once you do, focus. dont waste your time.
whatever you're headed for right now, stop walking towards it. run to it.
whatever you're headed for right now, stop walking towards it. run to it.
In the end, time does allow us to try.
"When the world is upside-down,
and we're walking on our hands,
but we keep on spinning round,
and who knows where we'll land,
in the end
in the end."
